It has to be over

I guess I made the decision to not do the cat and mouse chase with James. This is really hard. For years I longed for the attention he lavished upon me. Problem is I only enjoyed part of the attention. I had been alone for many years and to joined into a union with a man who needed me to help him with every aspect of his life..... shopping for groceries, laundry, and even cleaning his apartment.... well it got to be too much. I have my own life and my own home and my own needs.... that no one helps me with. I was starting to lose myself being with him. I miss him. I have no energy right now to write more about him.... this was a big step starting this.